Frustration & Musings

 I'm going to go bullet point style again because my thoughts are all over the place.

• So, as you can see from the stats below, my results did not match my optimism from my last entry. Not only was I unable to hold my weight, but I GAINED 2.5 pounds. That's a lot more than I was expecting. I knew that water retention could be a factor, but since I was back on plan for 3 days before stepping on the scale, I was hoping water wouldn't be at play. and I'd at least break even.
• To be honest, I am pretty annoyed. My body really has no forgiveness. Most people can have one "off" day and recover from it, but my body decides to pack on 2.5 pounds? Just for a few hours of off-plan indulgence? What gives? It really isn't fair.
• Unfortunately, whining about how unfair it is will not help matters. My body is the body I have, and I should be thankful that it is otherwise functional and healthy. Yes, my metabolism sucks. But it is metabolizing. And I have to work with it. I'm trying to cling to the positive that I've been able to bounce back, mentally, and I'm on track. Unsuccessful people complain about the circumstances they can't change, successful people adapt to them.
• To clarify, I'm more annoyed than upset, if that makes sense. It's still frustrating (maddening almost), but I made a choice. I have to own it. I refuse to allow myself to feel mental anguish over it.
• I went to the gym twice this week (HUZZAH!). It would have been 3, but I felt really off on Wednesday, including some dizziness, and I spent the entire morning (and part of the afternoon) sleeping. But I pushed myself harder than I have at the gym -- I took spin classes both Monday & Friday. They are not easy for me, and I know I'm not performing at the level the instructor is encouraging us to be at, but you've got to start somewhere. 
• Eating nutritiously and exercising feels a HELL of a lot better than being bloated and gassy after a big meal of heavy, unhealthy food. I have to remember that and constantly remind myself. (That's what a journal is for, right?)

WEIGH IN STATS: Week 5
* Change this week: +2.5lbs
* Total change since day 1: -16lbs
* Total change since March 2014: -39