Getting Lazy

So, I think I've been starting to get lazy. I haven't blogged in a week, which means that I haven't been terribly accountable. And I'm not just talking about food accountability, but mental and emotional accountability. I think I know by now that 90% of my food issues are mental.


There is exhaustion at play, and I just deleted a full paragraph of explanation, because it doesn't matter.  It doesn't explain what I can only describe as a combination of laziness and perhaps a bit of apathy. Cutting a few slices of cheese here..... an extra Popsicle there.... a few baby carrots at my friend's house with hummus. (Not the worst thing in the world, but not on-plan)

In the beginning when I was struggling with temptations, I was able to stop myself and say "Is this worth it?" and "Is this going to help me or make me feel better?" and "Do I really need to eat something right now?" I feel like right now I'm just blowing right past that and trying to get that temporary satisfaction in my stomach no matter what the cost.

Well here I am --- it didn't cost me numbers on the scale, but it cost me progress. It cost me momentum. I didn't let the program do its job because I let myself get in my own way.

I'm SO CLOSE to being able to wear the size 16 jeans again.  I have to remember that feeling when I want to eat a slice of cheese at night.


WEIGH IN STATS: Week 12
* Change this week: -1lbs  
* Total change since day 1: -28lbs
* Total change since March 2014: -51


WEIGH IN STATS: Week 13
* Change this week: 0lbs  
* Total change since day 1: -28lbs
* Total change since March 2014: -51