The headache is less intense, I'll give it that. I was getting my tires changed and I took a nap at my parents' house and I had a dream that [for some reason] there was a popcorn machine in my parents' house filled with the greasy/buttery carnival/movie-style popcorn, and I was eating it with my dad. But in the dream, somehow, I was pseudo-aware that I was on plan, and I remember going "OH CRAP! I wasn't supposed to eat that!" and feeling genuinely worried that I had messed up.
I guess it's a good thing that I *didn't* mess up, but still, that's just not fair, subconscious...
I picked up my car and I'm at home until it's time to pick up Rebecca. I'm feeling pretty hungry, but it's definitely not time to eat yet. I'm making myself useful by going through mail, scanning in worksheets and artwork from the kids (to save), and organizing stuff in the basement. I'm trying to drink, but I'm DEFINITELY wanting to eat right now. I think a few months ago I might have let myself have a bite of cheese, or some tomatoes -- they aren't inherently OFF plan, but eating them mindlessly without accountability definitely contributed to slowing down my progress (sometimes to a near-stop) which lead to frustration and bad choices.
When my oldest was in the 4's in preschool, she was having trouble dealing with her over-sensitive nature. She'd shut down crying a lot because of silly reasons. Her teacher told her "You are STRONG." I need to tell myself the same thing. I AM STRONG. I am stronger than the desire to eat.
(I think)
Notes:
- Lean & Green: Salad with lettuce, cucumber, and grape tomatoes. 1oz of cheese, rotisserie chicken breast, 1 egg white, and some Trader Joe's feta dressing.
- I had orchestra rehearsal tonight so it got me out of the house and somewhat distracted during my "munchies" time of night. I'm home now, though, and I'm tired, so I went for a popsicle.
- Hoping I get some more energy soon. I still just want to sleep sleep sleep...
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